Three Hours at a Time
Before my treatment began, there was a brief, fragile pause—a few days between hearing the diagnosis and stepping into the long road of medicine and machines. During that pause, my family—wanting to hold onto something normal—organized a small get-together at our home in Pune. It wasn’t a party. It was a quiet evening full of warmth, hugs that lingered longer than usual, and unspoken fears tucked behind nervous smiles. Just a few hours to pretend everything was okay. The next morning, reality came rushing in—I was scheduled for a bone marrow biopsy.
The word “biopsy” haunted me
from the beginning. The thought of a needle going into my bone felt unbearable.
I clung to hopeful online articles that said it wasn’t so bad, but my mind
raced anyway. And honestly? It wasn’t smooth. The pain wasn’t just physical—it
was fear, pressure, and panic rolled into one. But it passed. And when the
results came in, they brought the first piece of good news we’d had in weeks.
We could breathe again, even if just a little.
Then came chemotherapy. Each
session lasted about three and a half hours—long, exhausting marathons that
tested me emotionally and physically. The first one marked the beginning of a
fight I wasn’t sure I was ready for—but I knew I had to try. I was admitted to
the ICU afterward so they could monitor every heartbeat, every breath. My aunt
stayed with me through it all, her voice a lifeline as she filled the silence
with stories—some silly, some deep, all meant to distract me from the needle in
my arm. My parents sought their strength differently—praying at the Dagdusheth
Ganpati temple, hoping their faith would protect me when medicine couldn’t.
That day weighed heavily on all of us.
The chemo sessions came twice
a month. At first, I handled them okay. But as the months went on, my veins
shrank, hiding from every new injection. IV insertions became battles. One
session broke me—failed attempts left my arms bruised and my eyes full of
tears. Watching this, my father stepped in, his voice firm: only the head nurse
from now on. She came in like calm in a storm—gentle hands, kind eyes, and the
kind of presence that made you believe it would be okay. I never let anyone
else touch me after that.
After three months, we did a
scan. The results brought tears—but this time, the good kind. My body was
responding. My dosage was reduced. We finally felt hope beginning to win. But
just when we started to exhale, life threw us one more curve we never saw
coming.
This must’ve been incredibly hard to write, but it’s so powerful. Thank you for letting us into your story.
ReplyDeleteI’ve seen you at your toughest moments, and now watching you shine through this—my heart is full. So proud of you!”
ReplyDeleteYours is the only blog I want to read and get amazed each time with the smallest of fights u went thru... coming out strong
ReplyDeleteU being d commander who led the battle on d forefront n v d soldiers just behind u trying to b of any help at every juncture. N u being u got us all thru...kudos man n touchwood!!
ReplyDeleteYour strength through all of this is beyond inspiring!!
ReplyDeleteWatching you come through this battle with strength and courage has been inspiring beyond words.
ReplyDeleteOne should learn, how to fight. Which you have taught me.
ReplyDelete